Chris Boese tagged me with the “five things” meme, apparently not realizing that I had already posted on this and even tagged her. Oh well, another reason to post, and a chance to tag five more people.
- I don’t know what I want to do with my career. I enjoy software development, but that doesn’t entirely satisfy. I love to write, but I could never completely give up creating software. Keeping my eyes open for the write opportunity.
- Regarding both writing and software development, I don’t know exactly how well I perform either activity. Sometimes I’m very proud of my work, and at other times I wonder if it isn’t all just stupid and pedestrian. Other people are usually complimentary, but the very fact that I get little constructive criticism makes me suspicious of the validity of this feedback.
- How well do I remember my own past? Can’t say for sure. My memories often seem crystal clear, but I’ve internally repeated these stories to myself so many times that I certainly could have made embellishment into fact.
- Am I a good and honorable human being? Very uncertain. At times I feel and act in ways that may seem noble, and at other times I could be exceptionally petty and deliberately cruel. But I’m beginning to think that question may be irrelevant.
- I don’t know if I believe in God. But I’m proud of that one.
I like this meme, because I’m becoming more radically agnostic every day, and not just about religion. Many questions do not need a premature answer, and we shouldn’t be afraid to say that we don’t know. I learned this lesson from debugging software: you don’t find the answers so much by constructing theories as by questioning your assumptions. When everyone wants to pull us into their camp, we should fight for our right to uncertainty. As Franklin said:
The doorstep to the temple of wisdom is a knowledge of our own ignorance.
Now to tag five more people: Armchair Anarchist, Joseph, TDavid, Stu, and Chris again, just for spite . I won’t saddle you with the (now I realize how) difficult task of answering the unknown. You can just tell us the five things other people probably don’t know about you, if you’d prefer.